hello, I haven't anyone.............
I did my mitakes. I know. my Mom was dissapointed me. I want to tell sorry to her, but I can't talk anything. 2 days I felt like stranger in my home. but surely I know, its my wrong.
"you must know something Mom.......... you are the best ever I have. you are super mom stronger than the other who. you do your best for your family. I proud of you"
ok, I know, maybe I cant blaming others.
tapi gaktau kenapa gue selalu mikir ini semua gara2 Nita. ehm sorry, gak semua. tapi coba di bayangin, dengan cara kerja mama yg kaya sekarang, harusnya kita sekeluarga bisa lebih sejahtera dari ini. TAPI.......... karena mama juga nafkahin kelurga Nita, jadi penghasilan yg ada kebagi 2. dan mama harus kerja 2 kali lebih berat dari seharusnya biar kita bisa hidup dengan nyaman. kalo mama cuma fokus buat keluarganya, kondisi gue gak kaya gini sekarang, gak harus terus2an bohongin dia demi gue dan demi dia ga stress mikirin gue. mana mungkin gue bisa share apa yg terjadi sebenernya sama gue kalo gue liat kondisi dia?
kalo nyokap kerja dengan takeran yg seharusnya, dia pasti punya banyak waktu buat anak2nya, dia pasti bisa mantau anak2nya dari deket, langsung. bukan maksudnya mama ga perhatiin anak2nya, mama ngasih apa aja yang kita butuhin, sebisa mungkin, sekuat dia walaupun dia dalam kondisi yg ga baik2 aja, semuanya dia usahain demi anak2nya. tapi bukannya gatau diri dan gatau terimakasih, tapi......... "aku butuh mama support aku dari deket, langsung"
I know you do your best for us........ for your children..... for your family. i don't blame you. but I need you here. to watch me. every tears of you is my mistakes. I want you hold when they broke me, when they slut me. surely i need you than I need the-jerk-guy-but-i-love-heim-the-you-know. but I need you beside me. to make me strong like you, to teach me.
like others mom to ask her daughter everyday....... "hey whats about today? about your class? about your friends? everythings oke?" or anything else. I need you every day. I want you just for you family, not for Nita, or others.
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